the deer

the other day i had a dream

that sent me shuffling into the wilderness of my spirituality 

i went in

with the warmth of my thoughts 

and the mystery

of its purpose 

and then

there he was 

what i had been looking for!

he was waiting for me

my spirit guide 

MY SPIRIT ANIMAL 

bambi

grown up bambi

manbi?

"follow me"

he said

OF COURSE I FOLLOWED

like a moth to a flame

"Okay" he said

"two things"

"First, just so you know, this is a dream. we're gonna fly later.

Second, i have to show you something.

kay lets go"

majestic.

"BAMBI" i said

"What does this MEAN?"

"Who AM i?"

"What do i have to GAIN from this, bambi??" 

"What?"

"What? what nothing. you're overreacting. We're almost there - this isn't the flying part yet"

majestic. 

it was the eden of my subconscious 

there, 

all of it

all for the taking 

leaves and leaves and leaves

beautiful leaves 

was this it??

was my spiritual journey all for this?? 

this beautiful leaf? 

my spirit called

i knew what to do

i knew now what i was born to do 

what i was created for 

"paint it" 

bambi said

"paint it,"

"WITH YOUR HANDS"

YES

YES, BAMBI

I PAINTED

I PAINTED WITH ALL MY MIGHT AND POWER 

it was too much

i felt my soul swelling inside of me 

it was forming! 

and there it was.

the leaf.

the dream leaf

"i've done it, bambi!

tell me!

tell me what this means!" 

"It means!"

"Now you can draw that leaf"

"WAKE UP!"

and i did.

here's that leaf